Oct 31

Why do I write? Introspective musing of a blogger.

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“It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure, to embrace the new. But there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful. There is more security in the adventurous and exciting, for in movement there is life, and in change there is power.” — Alan Cohen

A comment made on one of my recent posts during the past week got me to thinking and I asked myself the following question: “Why do I write?”

I originally started this blog while living in Japan just after having had my first baby. I started writing because I wanted to have a place where I could share my thoughts and experiences about life in Japan and life in general. I didn’t know if I would enjoy it or stick with it. However, I found that more I wrote, the easier I found it to write and the more I enjoyed it. That’s probably one of the main reasons that I loved law school so much–whether I’m good at it or not, I love to write. As time passed, I wrote more and more about Japan. Japanese culture is one of my great passions in life, and this blog was the perfect place to record my thoughts and discoveries. I also fell in love with blogging because it gave me a creative outlet that I could work on in bits and pieces throughout the day. I may not have hours of time to sit down and do the knitting I’d like to do, but while I’m doing things like changing diapers and running errands, I can also be writing blog posts in my head.

No one was more disappointed than I when I had to move away from the place I loved so much. It wasn’t that I wasn’t excited to be close to family again, or to live in a place that was more familiar, it was that I was leaving behind a place that I had grown to love, a place that had given me somewhere to belong, a place that had become a part of who I was. I considered giving up blogging because I didn’t know what I would write about once we moved. I was scared that I would lose “my voice” because that voice had been so entwined with my Japanese experience. However, the more I thought about it the more I knew I had to try to continue. I would just “go with the flow” and let my voice evolve with my change in circumstances.

Although I miss Japan every day, I know I can’t dwell in the past; I must look forward. So what does a busy stay-at-home mom who also works write about in what little spare time she has? I was able to write about Japan before because it was a part of my everyday life. What was going to be a part of my everyday life after the move that I would feel compelled to write about? The answer to that question slowly evolved over the summer as I found myself writing more and more about food in some form or another, whether it be cooking and eating or the discovery of new products and places. Finally, in late August the light bulb turned on in my head and I realized that one of my other passions was a big part of my everyday life: food. Now there’s a topic I could write about until I’m blue in the face!

So now that I’ve found a revised direction for my voice, I’m happy
. I’m also grateful to the blogging community for giving me a place where I feel I belong. This move has been a lot harder than I expected it to be. My experience of reverse culture shock has been a lot more severe this time around than with my previous repatriation experiences, and I have been lonelier than I expected. Most of my life has been in flux, but I have had a few “constants” to lean on, and one of them has been blogging. Thank you for all of your support, kind words, and encouragement. Thanks for helping this blogger find a place in the world and get through a difficult time.

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LollyChops October 31, 2008 at 3:36 pm

I read this and just wanted to say one thing. You voice, kindness and passion come through clear as a bell in your blog. I know we have never met or may never meet in person but you are a true friend in every sense of the word. I feel like I get to know you just a little more every time a read a post of yours.. HUGS FUJI.


LollyChops October 31, 2008 at 3:37 pm

P.S. Your banner totally rocks too. hee hee


Patrick & Jenn October 31, 2008 at 4:58 pm

LaFujimama… I discovered your blog thru Goldie’s. Small world! I heard your head was hurting on Sunday, hope you’re feeling better. I may have to venture on here from time to time for some of your recipes. They all sound so yummy and I like to try something new from time to time.

Jenn Francis


kawaii crafter October 31, 2008 at 5:00 pm

I’m so glad you didn’t stop blogging. I enjoy dropping by and seeing what your making or eating. Not to mention just reading the posts.

I like your site so much I referred it to one of the Kirtsy editors.



Parisienne Farmgirl October 31, 2008 at 7:09 pm

Hey La Fuji! Merci for becoming a follower! Checking your blog out now! I’m down with writing about food – i could “do” food all day long! There is just not enough time. I just got a 3 inch thick cookbook from Gourmet Magazine from the library that I am enjoying every evening. Fantastique!


Anonymous October 31, 2008 at 8:58 pm

I’ve been reading your blog for several months originally because I wanted to read about Japan – a country I’m still missing everyday since I left it three years ago – but I’ve enjoyed the change in focus as well and have remained a firm fan!

I don’t think people quite understand what it’s like to be ‘torn’ between two countries unless they’ve experienced it.

Warm wishes and I look forward to reading more.



erin October 31, 2008 at 11:01 pm

I have loved reading your blog!!! I often just sit here and drool at the pictures of the food you post! I miss being close in proximity to you so we can hang out and play…but I find I really wish you could be my live in cook!!!
Anyway, keep up the blogging because I love it and I just mentioned it this morning to a bunch of girls from church!!!


Jennifer October 31, 2008 at 11:03 pm

I had no idea your move back here was so hard on you! I’ll have to look back at your older posts to read about Japan. What an adventure for your family to have been able to live there. I’m sure glad you moved near us so we could become friends though :)


K and S November 1, 2008 at 12:48 am

hugs from Osaka


Betty C. November 1, 2008 at 4:12 am

I know I would have a BAD reverse culture shock if I moved back to the USA from France, even though I’m sometimes tempted…

Blogging is a great part of our lives, isn’t it?


magikjaz November 1, 2008 at 7:19 pm

blogging is sometimes the only things that keeps me sane.

I have in no way found my voice yet … but I’m still trying … and I love your foodie posts! (of course I am married to a chef … so I have an almost innate love of food anyway)


Semsavblanc November 2, 2008 at 6:19 pm

I don’t think I can accurately convey the thanks you deserve to hear. I feel blessed to know you through everything you have shared in your blog. You are generous, intellegent and loving and we all get to partake in this just by tuning in to what you are sharing with us almost every day.
You remind me of a pen pal I had as a little girl; someone I had never met, yet felt as though she was one of my closest friends and confidants.
It is wonderful that you have found support and encouragement through your blog. Please know that it goes both ways. You bless us all!!
I can understand your pain in leaving behind Japan. There is something about that country that can hook you for life! I truly hope and pray that you will soon feel at peace back in the USA. Who knows where your journey will take you in the future :-)
Again, thank you for giving us so much to enjoy and letting us be a part of your great, big adventure of life!


Chef E November 2, 2008 at 7:38 pm

I enjoy your writing and look forward to more…


Melanie Gray Augustin November 9, 2008 at 6:28 am

I’m soooo glad you continued to blog. And you know, even though the focus has changed from Japan to food, there is no change in the feel of the blog, you are so true to what you write and what you love.

I’m so sorry to hear about the reverse culture shock. I know only too well how nasty it can be, and wish I could be there to give you a big hug! As you know, it will pass with time but Japan will always remain in your heart and will always be here for you when you can come back.


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